God’s love for you is not based on whether you feel loved. There will be many times during your Christian walk that you do not feel anything.
God’s Word is true whether you feel it or not.
“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.” (John 3:16-17)
There is nothing that you have ever done, might be doing right now, or will do in your future that God does not forgive you of. You cannot be “too bad” for God.
“for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” (Romans 3:23)
“O Lord, You have searched me and known me.” (Psalm 139:1)
Take comfort in knowing that God knows all about you. And, He loves you! Period. No if’s, and’s, or but’s.
Whether you feel it or not, rest assured that God loves you!
Read John Chapter 1.